Thought of the month of
September 2005

« My 11 years journey »

I admit it! I am scared ...

The old rules no longer apply and this past 11 years seem today as a dream or an adventure; a ride ... yes just a perpetual roller coaster ride ...

I arrived in the US on the 16th of September 1994 and am scheduled to leave back to Europe, my country, on the 19th of September 2005. I still remember my 1994 move perfectly: sitting between a 12 years old boy from Sweden and the window of the plane on my way to the Big Apple, I was thinking of how we both had one thing in common: we were moving to a new country to begin a new life filled with hopes and dreams. I wrote that day in my journal: "I wonder if this decision is worth what I am leaving behind and am I doing the right thing? I guess I will know in 10 years."

Well, 11 years, 2 divorces, few carriers, Many intriguing experiences and a music odyssey later, I am back to where I started. Back to Brussles. But it is important to mention I have no regrets whatsoever. What came was to go and even tho it took me a while to realize and cope with it, I know now that nothing was there for me to keep except those souvenirs and their lessons.

That is how I am ready for the next 11 years! I have Dreams but no expectaions. I have Goals but am flexible enough to give myself the needed time to get there. I try to be assertive about accomplishing what I set my mind to but objective enough to know nothing is here to stay. Intelligent enough to know what the correct route is to where I want to be in my life but willing to take a few detours to get there... for I learned in this past 11 years that my journey has been so much more important than where I am today.