Thought of the month of
December 2005

« I know she is waiting »

I know she is waiting for me. Looking at sights and corners of streets to see the energy flowing. It is not a matter of if as much as a matter of when; I can see her face in everyone's regard. I can see her heart and touch reaching for me. I can already feel my heart stepping up its beat.

I've grown much since my last adventures. I think I learned much since my last love. No discussions are to be had of RK's touch in my soul. But I have so much to say of how desperate it has made me as a whole.

I miss her so much. I miss her touch. I miss the way she took me in; the way she washed me at night; the way she gave me hope; the way she broadened my road. I keep thinking of what she kept saying: "Choosing the best for her..."
I have to let her go!

And as soon as she's gone, there will be the one standing in front of me telling me of the city she cohabits with her flowers and her dog. Telling me of how sundays are spent in bed with a lover to the sound of the bells. She will crisp my heart, take my hand and tell me she is mine, for there is no life of me and her being apart from our destiny line.